3:00 in The Morning

It was 3:00 in the morning and I was wide awake. I lay there, thinking. Wow only 4 hours of sleep and I feel fully rested and the most energy I've had the past 6 months.

Most of you know all the issues we have been dealing with Double A. Her feeding issues, reflux, no sleep and rashes. Well the past few months we have been doing researches trying to find just the right formula for the little girl. We tried everything that could help a baby who is Lactose intolerant as they claim she is. Nutramigen helped a lot but she was still not a normal baby with normal fussiness here and there. Double A would hardly sleep and be always on the screaming mode. Always had some kind of rash, most diaper rashes even with loads of cream.

Anyway long story short, we decided to try this formula that is milk based but with broken down protein and something else that supposed to help with fussiness and gas. I thought to myself, what can we loose? $12 bux which was the price of the Can. I have been desperate to find a solution as I was hitting my limits on how much more of the stress and none sleep I could take.

First two days on the formula, nothing really changed, she was somewhat happier. But the third day she passed so much gasses, and had a few exploded diapers. A week into this formula she decreased her awaking times and took almost 3 hrs nap. I couldn't believe it and would constantly be checking on her making sure she was breathing. Two days later, day 10 on this new formula, Double A woke up every 2-3hrs at night, which was amazing to me YAY!!

Day 11-- Double A is crying, I woke up, looked at the clock...3:00 am my heart started racing and I jumped out of bed and ran to her room thinking. Crap I fell asleep so deeply that I didn't hear her crying. I had this huge gilt feeling thinking she has been crying for a while. No her face wasn't red, she wasn't really screaming and she was still groggy. I fed her and she was back asleep in the middle of feeding. Yes, she just woke up. 3am and she just woke up. This is a big deal!!!

Now me? What do I do about myself? I am wide awake 3am feeling fully rested. How can someone feel fully rested with just 4hrs of sleep?For the first time in 6 months I have gotten more then 3hrs straight of sleep. I went back to bed to force myself to get some more sleep. My mind wouldn't shut up and I could not fall back asleep. This guy sort of woke up and I said, Hun I cant sleep. All he said was, get on the elliptical.

Eventually I was able to go back to sleep which was around 4:40am and double A woke up again at 5:15 and for good at 6:50am

Double A is doing so well that she is waking only 2-3 times at night. I know to some this may be a lot still for a 4 almost 5 months baby but for her it is very few. I have forgotten how wonderful it is to go on with your day not feeling like you have been dragging yourself around in order to get things accomplished.